It all started that day
10 years ago
When I walk through the door
And that's all I know
Those days were to roam
Go home and go to sleep
Life was never the pinnacle
But was best to believe
That the times that I cherished
Was so hard to retrieve
And the burden on my mind
Was too hard to see
And it stayed on like that
For a year or so
Then it went downhill
As the cold wind blow
When your friends overtook
As the conversation started shifting
Trying to be larger than life
But I started drifting
And I went on to go astray
With the talks I was listening
And was down bad
But my heart started stinging
Cut off the weakest links
And the weight started lifting
This era was just 5 years ago
As I began anew
With these words, I grow
And the venom I spew
Went on to consume me
Not carnage enough
But I took it respectfully
Days fell like dominoes
One by one they fell
Racing to be the man
Lord woe I became me
Cause the ink is gone
And my veins are empty
As the chapter ends
Still alive, don't tempt me
Cause 3 years were gone now
And I started moulding myself
And every day passed by
A tight rope with no belt
As the days became happier
But times were gloomy
Cause pushing me down
Was not a way to know me
Negotiated whatever I could
But it gave up too soon
And was stuck under the roof
Working to rework a truce
This brings me to my life
The way it is headed
Cause the final year's the worst one
And has left me shredded
Cause when your worth is dictated
With the pointless claims
To be true is to be you
But that's all they hated
Accepted the outcome
And went for another bone
But this place is worse than hell
I guess I should have known
When you try to reason
Their jaws turn to stone
No need for humble courtesy
Put a curse on authority
In the face of adversity
And move on to let them be
With their own downfall
I don't care anymore
Everyone to me is hostile
With all this rage
I pent up aside
And let it go with these words
That's why when you see me in the streets
I act like nothing's bothering me
Even though half the people
I know have a problem with me
Hate me or love me
Only god can judge me
It's funny cause it seems
Words never mattered when they did
I sigh as I relive
The regret is what's left
Why I even tried when I was set to fail
Cause the past haunts you
But I made peace with my demons
And we never lived happily ever again
Cause it sucks to be me
But showing it ain't enough
How I wonder
The first step
Was it a blunder
Or was it a chisel
To break my shell
Or should I go under
The boulder of life
And meet my demise
A thing so insignificant
Yet it made me what I am
Maybe the caterpillars never died
But the butterfly never sprang.
By: Arman Yusuf
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