O Darkness! Am I Alone?

Dear Darkness, my old friend.

I come to you with a question,

Am I alone?

When the world twists and turns,

Am I alone?

When the warmth of the sun or that of a caring heart doesn’t reach me,

Am I alone?

When my family doesn’t feel familiar,

Am I alone?

When I’m absent from my best dreams,

Am I alone?

When tomorrow starts without me,

Am I alone?

When you are away from me,

Am I alone?”

When the flowers wither around me,

Am I alone?

When the stars dim on me,

Am I alone?

When the scars deepen with no cuts,

Am I alone?

When the world feels like nothing but a hook paining me with every pull,

Am I alone?

When the supposed liberator feels like the subjugator,

Am I alone?

When my eyes run out of tears,

Am I alone?

When so much blood is shed that it no longer bleeds with the blade,

Am I alone?

When you take over my thoughts and block the glimmer of hope,

Am I alone?

When they realize that I’m not who they think,

Am I alone?

When the end feels like the answer,

Am I alone?

When the “well-wishers” tell me to walk it off,

Am I alone?

When they require me to keep bringing the fire but I’m no longer inspired,

Am I alone?

When the curse which they call life becomes unbreakable,

Am I alone?

When the elixir of love doesn’t go down the throat,

Am I alone?

O Darkness,

Am I alone?

Why am I asking you this?

Because none but you know what it’s like to live without light,

To be feared and hated upon,

To be destroyed every morning yet still standing up every night.

I see myself in you and I believe you do too

But how can the boat move forward when we are so far away.

Let me be one with you and finally,

I could achieve peace.

O Darkness,

Should I spend my eternity with you?

Should I end it altogether?

To jump or not to jump, that was the question.

Oh, Darkness,

Am I alone?

By: Arman Yusuf